Last month I did “K” and “M”s engagement session. I promised to share “K”s testimony/story after their wedding. I hope you take the time to read it, it will bless you. Pictures after the testimony!
Tonight I had a lot of time on my hands. So I took a trip down memory lane. What a lane it is. First of all, where has time gone??? And WOW at all the events that have happened? Life throws some curve balls.
I grew up pretty much like any other kid. I had an older brother and we fought like cats and dogs. We pretty much drove our parents crazy. But you see God had me in his hands way back then. You see my father wasn’t around too much but God stepped in and blessed me with a man that loved me as his own. You see this man and his whole family took me and my brother in as their own family. They never treated us any different. I was blessed with a step father but I never thought of him as any less than my own father.
God took something that was broken and blessed my brother, mother, and myself double. God is so good. But He didn’t stop there. God protected me as I grew up. He sheltered me from the things of this world. While a lot of kids my age were going through their experimenting days I somehow missed that (for the most part) boy am I thankful. But during this time I made some pretty amazing friends. One who one day later became my beloved husband.
We did a lot of group dating. See we were all such great friends we went everywhere together. Our Friday’s were spent at football games, bowling, and movies. What great days they were. One of the fellows stole my heart. I really don’t believe either one of us was looking for each other. As a matter of fact, a mutual friend set us up on our first alone date. Well, we will just say it didn’t go too well. Neither one of us wanted to go back out. But our mutual friend couldn’t understand why. He thought we would be perfect together. So even though we weren’t wanting to we did. Cause God was already working on us. So Stu and I dated throughout high school and college. And yes we married. We married as youngsters. Many people said we were way too young and we were but I liked it because we grew up together leaning on one another.
After a few years of marriage, we decided we wanted a baby. But for some reason we were unsuccessful. We prayed and prayed and went through many tests. But again God wasn’t done. God has a way of making the impossible happen. And we were blessed with a handsome little boy. Stuart was so proud. I’ll never forget the look on his face when he found out he was having a son. God is so good let’s not forget. Not too long after Miller was born my daddy the man who I talked to about just about anything. The man who helped keep me level headed got sick. It happened really fast and completely out of the blue. Turned out he had gotten fluid in his lungs somehow. I knew my daddy was sick but I never thought in a million years that God was about to take him from me. I was DEVASTATED. Oh, how I missed (and still do) my daddy. My wing man had left me. There are still so many talks I need to have with him. I was so lost but like I said God is so good because he didn’t leave me alone he had Stu there right by my side. And boy was he. I went through some really bad times but Stu never gave up on me. Stu saw me at my worst. But he loved me through it all.
Stuart and I became so close. The closeness I had so wanted. We went to church pretty regularly, but something in Stu had changed and inturnd began to change me and us as a family. You see I believe Stu had reached this closeness with God. He began to read his bible in the woods at work and at home. He would come home and tell me what he had learned. We would read together. It was so very awesome. I can’t describe the feeling other than it was the Holy Ghost. Boy we were so happy we almost shined. But for some reason this with us was short lived. Not because we chose to stop but because God thought it best to call Stu home. Talk about your gut punch… We (the whole family) were in shock. I mean absolute SHOCK!! How could this be?!?! Why did God do this is what I kept thinking. But I also knew it wasn’t to hurt any of us. God was ready for Stu and looking back he took Stu home at a high point in His and Stus relationship.
I was in such shock that I felt numb. I didn’t care to get up I didn’t care to eat. But thank God he blessed us with Miller because I didn’t have a choice but to get up and to be strong for our little one. Because I knew he was going to have a LOT of questions as to why his daddy had to go. And all I kept hearing in my head was I will praise You in this storm.
God is good all the time even when we feel like He is crushing us. God means everything for good. God not once left our side. I had know idea what to do but I knew by watching the men in my life over the years that I didn’t need to turn my back on God. This is when I needed to cling to Him like never before. So I did my best. I stayed in church and I continued to praise Him in the storm. I tried to show people that God is so good. That He loves us all and never wants us to hurt. But God has our lives already planned out and He knows what He is doing. You see I thought I would continue to go through life just God Miller and myself. I wasn’t looking for anyone else. But as I keep telling y’all God is good. He was working in someone else’s life in kinda the same way. This guy had gone through many many hardships and trials and had just gone through one of them when all this happened. Now mind you this guy and myself knew NOTHING about one another. Didn’t know each other never seen each other. This guy had heard at his church what had been happening in my life. And for some reason it struck a cord with him. He wasn’t looking for anybody. He sent me a message through FB not to hit on me but he sent me an encouraging word. He wanted to let me know his church was praying for us and that I was inspiring him as a Christian.
It was a very sweet message but I got a lot of messages just like his from all over the community. Y’all really showed me love. But for some reason as the days went by his message kept coming back to mind. So I sent him a message back thanking him for his kind words and to tell him that all the glory goes to God not to me. But little did I know that God was already working on us. After those messages we began to talk and one day finally meet. That one message grew into a friendship which grew into a beautiful relationship. God is so good. We did end up getting married. And we had ourselves a little blended family. You see he has two beautiful little ones who I love so very much and I had one handsome little fellow which Matt had grown quite found of. We are happy. We have both been through a lot and never want to change any of our past because we both had some BEAUTIFUL pasts.
But God is so good that when he closed the doors on our past he left a window open that put us together for more of our future together. I started this night tonight by looking at old photos and thinking of so many memories. And realizing all the many blessings God has done for just me. Things that the devil ment for us to be destroyed God ment for the Good. So when I look over my life I feel like I lived almost two lives. But I’m so glad because I’ve gotten double the enjoyment. Double the love. I’ve got so many families it’s unreal. So when I say God is good I truly mean it. He is good all the time. He wants to be our father if we will just let Him. He wants us to call on Him in times of trouble and in times of happiness. He loves us unconditionally. No matter how bad you think you’ve been or how unworthy you think you are Jesus’ blood washes us white as snow. There is absolutely nothing you can do to make our Father stop loving you. He prays daily for us at the right hand of God. He tells His Father that one right there is mine. So stop and take a moment to think about your own life. The ups and the downs. Look and see how God hasn’t left you either even when maybe you thought He had look closer. I urge you to share your testimony because I bet there is someone out there that needs to hear it.