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the one where i talk to my 12-year-old self

Have you ever wondered what you would tell your 12 year old self if you could time travel? If you had the chance would do it? Would you chance changing your future? I think about things like this at times – especially right now since I’m super into the Flash series! 

If I decided to risk it and go back to tell 12 year old me anything, this is what it would be: 

​Don’t be intimidated by those with more confidence than you – this doesn’t mean that they are stuck up, it just means that they have learned a very crucial, valuable lesson sooner than you have. One day you’re going to decide that high school isn’t for you, that’s fine, get your GED and start the next chapter. It’s okay if you don’t know what you want to be until you’re in your twenties, stop thinking you’re stupid because of it, you will get there! You’re hardheaded and you’re going to learn everything the hard way, it’s going to cause your heart to break hundreds of times, but you’ll get through it and come out stronger – just hang in there. Boys are not the answer. That high you get when they say you’re pretty or that they love you – it eventually goes away. Learn to love yourself. Tell mom and dad that you need therapy. When they don’t listen don’t wait until it’s forgotten about and pick up a medicine bottle as a cry for help, keep at them. Eventually you can make them understand, they love you and will always be there for you. Keep in touch with your friends better, one day you’re going to really need them and, if you don’t watch out, when that day comes you won’t have many in your corner. Don’t change how passionate you are, better yet, don’t change anything about yourself. Sure you’re loud and silly at times, but it’s part of YOU. Don’t be embarrassed about that! RE-evaluate the people you call your friends in a few years and stop making excuses for them. Go to church more.

If we’re being completely honest, I would never take the risk, but I still wonder what might have happened if I had been given the above advice from my future self. Since it would be coming from me – would I have actually listened and applied it to my life? 

At 12 going to my first real dance. His mom and aunt drove us, but hey it was kind of a date!