the one where i’m not supermom

I have high functioning anxiety as well as high functioning depression. This means that I constantly find myself adding more and more things to my days. When I’m busy I’m happy. However, I also have health issues and after trying to be supermom/superwoman for a while my body says it’s had enough.

We’ve all been there. You’re momming and running life so hard, things are going great then one day you hit a brick wall and all that you’ve been juggling comes crashing down.

Those days are hard. It’s the days when you feel like your world is crumbling. It’s these days, when you definitely know that you aren’t supermom, that are some of hardest ones to get through. These are the days when you question your every decision, the days that you question if you’re doing anything right, the days when you feel like giving up or giving in.  That’s where I am right now, but I can tell you one thing with certainty – the one thing I will not do is give up. I’m struggling in every part of my life currently, but I know – without a doubt – that everything will all work out.

I’m messy, clumsy, imperfect and I don’t feel anything close to supermom BUT when I see myself through my son’s eyes I see the mom that I’m striving to be. He sees what matters and not all of the superficial things. He knows that I I would spend every second with him if I could and he knows how much he’s loved.

I’m busy, short tempered and a little distant because I’m overly exhausted BUT my husband takes it in stride. He tells me how amazing I am even though I’m a blubbering emotional mess lately. None of us are super to ourselves, but take a step back and look at the bigger picture. See yourself though your loved one’s eyes. Take a deep breath. Fall into your faith and let peace take over.